First blog!

First blog!

Ive decided to just be boring and keep an account of my days so I can look back and see if there is any progress in my life.

A quick filler...I have been off work for nearly four months with stress, depression and anxiety, and this week has been a really hard week.  Today however, has been quite a productive, and fairly ok day.

In the last four months, I have had no motivation whatsoever to do anything - clean the house, make food, do the washing and even get dressed or read a book - and anyone that knows me (even just a little) knows this is totally out of the ordinary for me, I read about 2 books a week, although since I have been ill, I cant even be bothered to do this.  All I have done, is sat in my PJ's smoking 40 a day, watching rubbish tv and..well thats more or less it.  This week so far has been really hard.  I've been extremely tearful and not wanted to get out of bed.

Today has been really good and a nice break in the pattern.  Im on my fourth load of washing - and because its been a perfect washing day, everythings gone on the line.  The kitchen is clean, and the living room is moderately tidy lol.  Ive prepared a chili which is on in the slow cooker.  I have even got dressed today!  I took the dog out, and I have sat in the garden and finally started to update my book of shadows which dave bought me for christmas.  I am also thinking I might have a read of my book that has been on the go for a few months!!  I think its the sun thats finally appeared today, it certainly has lots of amazing properties.

Hopefully the evening will carry on being lovely

Over and out

Worried About Ray