Very Tired

Today has been a really long one.  After a lovely day yesterday, I hoped it may carry on.  Then last night I didnt get any sleep which I hate.  Theres nothing more boring or lonely than being up by yourself for 8 hours being unable to talk to anyone because theyre all in bed, and at that time in the morning, there isnt usually anything decent to watch on the tv.  I did manage to watch two films I had recorded - Go, and Shooting Fish, both Id reccommend!!  They certainly kept me entertained for 4 and a half hours, then two hour long episodes of Big Brother (yawn).  Luckily my mum came onto MSN at half five this morning so I had someone to talk to for an hour and a half before she went to work.

Had my fortnightly checkup at the doctors today, and I dont know if he was having an off day or what, but he didnt seem at all interested in talking to me today, or even remembering why I was there - after all, he has made me a regular visitor.  He asked how I was feeling  (I thought that much was obvious, I looked horrendous after not sleeping for 21 hours up to that point) and told him Id had an exceptionally bad week this week.  He asked if I thought the tablets werent working (he seems very quick to swap and change), to which I replied Id only been on them a week so they more than likely hadnt kicked in yet - he added I was probably correct in thinking this  (Whos the doctor here??).

He then asked if there were any other problems, and I said I hadnt been sleeping again and explained I hadnt slept since the night before and got prescribed Temazepam again, he said had I tried taking two - and said no as he had advised to only take one!!  So he upped the dosage to two a night and only gave me enough for 3.5 nights which is stupid.  Then got me out as quickly as he could - even though I was ten mins early for my appointment!  Charmed.

When I got home, I rang some guy about a lovely car Id seen on autotrader this morning, but it had gone  :(  Oh well, will just have to keep looking.

Havent done anything else today - except for getting back in my PJ's and sitting on the sofa most of the day and feeling like crap from the lack of sleep. 

I dually took my two tablets at 12:15 am when I started to feel tired as im supposed too, and guess what...three hours later Im still wide awake.  This really sucks.  Especially as Dave is in bed, and I can hear Molly snoring on the sette!!

On a lighter note, Tomorrow (that should be today now) is Summer Solstice (or the start of British Summer Time to non Pagan folk!), so I will try and write a ritual to perform tomorrow evening if im feeling up to it.  Hopefully I will be able to get some sleep and give the house a good going over and get some more work down in my book of shadows.

Think I might get a glass of cider and have a read to see if it can kick start these bloody tablets into working lol!

Untill tomorrow,

Over and out