Weird week - long boring blog

Am just about to have a rant and let rip.

Had a weird week this week with lots of ups and downs.  Ive been suffering for nearly a week with a virus.  Ive got a chest infection, sinusitis, blocked ears and a sore throat.  I generally feel poop. 

Cant really remember much before thursday - just a bit of taking the dog for a walk and thats more or less it.  Oh, that just reminded me.  Why do people have to be so stupid??  I was out with Molly a couple of days ago, and I had to go to the cash point.  Not the easiest of tasks with a hyperactive labrador.  I had got her to sit, and was talking to her constantly telling her to stay - she was being on her best behaviour.  Then this woman came up (could quite clearly hear me talking) and started making kissie noises and talking to her....right at the moment I put my card in the machine.  Now Molly being Molly, needs no encouragement to misbehave.  She launched herself up into one of her 3ft vertical jumps trying to lick this woman's face.  I actually think she caught her on the cheek with her newly clipped (scratchy) claws. Of course I apologised because..well thats just what you do, and she assured me it was her fault.  After all, it was. Ha. Stupid woman.

Ive had a situation while Ive been off sick with a friend.  It all started off OK, he took me out once a week for lunch to get me out the house, then it all seems to have spiraled out of control.  He started texting me at least ten times a day (no joke), then he got face book...he started sending me messages all the time, then he added the chat pop up on facebook and wanted to talk to me all the time.  Then I made the mistake of showing him how to use MSN.  So ten texts a day, umpteen fb messages a day, getting me on MSN - and to top it all wanting to see me virtually every day.  It started to get beyond a joke, he used to start getting funny with me if I didnt reply to a text within an hour, etc etc, so I basically told him to stop all contact and that I didnt want to talk to him anymore as was stressing me out.

I thought this was the end of it, but I kept getting messages wanting to see me etc etc.  Id since found out, he has talked to several people about the falling out, one person said "shes legendary for taking stuff the wrong way"....apparently, he's been googling depression etc and told people im a textbook case and he isnt going to leave me alone because I need help.  I say I dont need pushing. 

Thursday it was a friends leaving do.  As everyone wandered off to a restauraunt, id stood outside the pub to have a cigarette.  He came over to me and started talking, so I thought id do the decent thing and have a conversation.  He then told me I was freaking him out as I hadnt spoken to him for over a week and now I was...(I believe this is whats called being civil??), and proceded to tell me that I would snap out of it and quoted this person saying I was legendary etc etc.  I got mad and left.  I then met up with everyone after theyd eaten, and went to a house party.  he started being very intimidating wanting to talk to me along in the kitchen, I thought I could go listen to what he had to say - it wasnt going to change how I felt.  Someone answered my wishes and barged in, making my escape easy.  At around 2am, I said I was leaving.  Im poorley at the min anyway and have a virus ergo..feel like shit, dave is on crutches and he was starting to get some pain, and also had said I would walk 2 girls home in opposite directions (so needed to leave as would take a while).  He started begging me to go back and talk to him, and made me really cross because I wanted to leave.  I said something along the lines of it not being the time or the place, and I didnt want to hear anymore.  Story over.

Untill last night.  It was another friends leaving do.  I still feel pants having a bad chest, blocked up ears etc etc, but made the effort because Ive known her 8 years.  He was there.  I lost him in a pub after leaving to go somewhere else.  I bumped into another friend who asked me if this guy had been giving me trouble.  I asked why, and he told me that after I left the party Thursday, he approached him and asked if he could talk to him about something (these two arent even mates!!).  He told him the story about how "I'd been" and also that he had been googling depression and text book case blah blah.  Now this made me furious.  I havent told work mates why I am off work.  And now to my knowledge, he has spoken to five other people!!!!  What was funny was yesterday morning before the do obviously, he sent me a text saying "Theres gossip at work we've fallen out.  I want you to know Ive told no one about it so it didnt come from me.  Im sorry".  HOW DARE HE LIE!!!!  I know full well he has discussed this with people as they have approached me and told me exactly what has been said!!  So for starters, im pissed that he's making me out to be a nast bitch to people I work with - as they dont know the full story, and secondly, Im rather pissed off he is telling people (drunk or not) why im off work! What a liar.  He doesnt know I know all this so he thinks he can keep up the facade. GGRRRRR.  The thing is, is this is starting to freak me out and really starting to upset me.  I just dont know what I should do.

Anywhoo.  Not worth wasting anymore breath on that.

Went to mums today, she fed me a lovely roast belly pork dinner - although I didnt much feel like eating.  Had some fun, played with Felix, caught up with my Bro, and sat like a pixie under a piece of cardboard to shelter from the rain whilst having a ciggie!!  Did get upset a bit today, because I recently passed my maths exam (at 28 yes I know), and theyre giving the certificates out on Tuesday.  I wanted to get mine and take mum and dad with me because im so proud - because Ive finally attempted it after twelve years and actually passed it, also its this grade thats got me into university.  I told mum this, but she said I had to understand she was too busy - besides which, it wasnt really anything proper, and the only ceremonys worth going to are degrees.  I have to say, this burst my bubble a little. She cant remember even being at my first graduation ten years ago, and no one took any pictures or anything - I just wanted that back.  I didnt cry in front of her.  She sent me an email recently apologising for being grumpy with me lately, shes so tired from working all hours, and in pain with her back (although thats no excuse she said...), and I remembered back to that today.  I dont think grunpy is what she should have said sorry for.  In the last week alone, she said my belly was getting really fat, I should get rid of the car and not get another, I should get Dave to hire an automatic for holidays in just over a month as he should be able to drive that better than a manual with his torn ligaments, Ive given you half my wages this month buying you shopping, cant afford to buy you a new car now till after holidays in august (??), tell that weirdo to get lost, if I give you the gravy bowl to take stuff home in you have to promise not to break it (??), moaned about plating up my lunch on her best china plate because I forgot to take the shitty plate back, and then my certificate thing.  Just for the record, Ive not asked for any money, nor have I asked her to buy me a car - that was supposed to be a suprise, but she told me.....what have I dont just lately?? Dont think I deserve this - and not coping with it very well at the minute with everything else thats going on.  *sigh*

All I would like really at the moment, is to have 1 good week.

Untill next time

Over and out